Tara Ballard

ALL MY LIFE I HAVE PERCEIVED THE WORLD WRONGLY

The gentleman driving my taxi clarified                                      

that it is the trees who bring the rain,

and my feet fell through the floor, 

tumbling onto pavement, sandals scuffing

the roadway. To imagine, I assumed otherwise:

that rain brings the trees, that these gargantuan vegetables 

depend on what falls from clouds, rather than the clouds’ 

very existence being because of combined branches 

and leaves, trunks and roots that extend beneath grasses 

and net underneath the asphalt we drive on, invisible 

but working, pulling together water particles, forming 

entire systems and maintaining a standard rotation 

like the planets I studied in grade school.  

 

//

 

He continued with the conversation, 

but I became a stuck-foot breathing machine, 

pedaling past the hillsides as he turned the steering wheel. 

He turned the steering wheel and the trees—palm, mango—

became Denalis, Jabal al-Akhdars, capable of altering the atmosphere 

and thus the direction of our future conditionals.

There was no breeze to jostle the car, but tree fronds 

were a shimmering. Each shade of green corresponding

to the number of relationships I had misidentified, 

that I had eyed in opposite and convinced myself certain. 

 

//

 

Yes, trees bring the rain. He ignored me in the rear-view,

tapping his fingers on the metal door, his arm stretched 

out the rolled-down window. The road we traveled 

left the fields and aimed for elevation. We climbed 

like slow-growing vines, and I could no more define 

the dizzying force that holds us earthbound. 

 

//

 

A generation of trees filled my lungs wet. 

This is to say, what I once believed 

unlikely is probably true. 

Tara Ballard is the author of House of the Night Watch (New Rivers Press), winner of the 2016 Many Voices Project Prize, and the recipient of a 2019 Nazim Hikmet Poetry Prize. Her poetry has been published, or is forthcoming, in Consequence, Diode, Michigan Quarterly Review, North American Review, Poetry Northwest, Tar River Poetry, and elsewhere. She is an affiliate editor at Alaska Quarterly Review and a PhD student in the Midwest.

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