Merrill Oliver Douglas

ANOTHER POEM ABOUT MENSTRUATION

           

            if there is a river

            more beautiful than this

            bright as the blood

            red edge of the moon

                          Lucille Clifton,

                          “poem in praise of menstruation”

 

We were the moon’s sworn sisters:

rhythmic, sticky, glistening.

 

That was an article of faith.

But now I’d swear, if any goddess

 

took me in charge back then,

she was not the moon: she was

 

a squat, dripping creature

with foul breath dragging her bulk

 

across the living room, clutching

a nightstick to jab in my back. Call her

 

goddess of stained jeans soaking

in the bathroom, of super-absorbent

 

overnight pads, name her shambling

mud-nymph of clots, of tampons

 

like dead mice, mother of headaches

that drowned out the newscast,

 

of days when I slunk from desk

to toilet, days when I had to lie down,

 

who left me to leak in the blankets,

who trilled her alarm in my bones.

Merrill Oliver Douglas’s first full length collection, Persephone Heads For the Gate, won the 2022 Gerald Cable Book Award from Silverfish Review Press. It will be published in 2024. She is also the author of the poetry chapbook Parking Meters into Mermaids (Finishing Line Press, 2020). Her poems have appeared in Baltimore Review, Barrow Street, Tar River Poetry, Stone Canoe, Little Patuxent Review and Whale Road Review, among others. She lives near Binghamton, New York.

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