Susan Kolodny

GRAY III/ inherited

I sit   knees drawn up   

on the stairs’ ash colored carpet     

I am four   I ask my father 

about that holiday others celebrate  

It is 1948    three years

since the grainy newsreels     

our gaunt dead

in striped pajamas   uncles aunts    

He says    There   is   no   Santa  Claus   

In his voice   something   terrible

something I may never comprehend

yet know I won’t forget

My fingers grasp 

at mouse colored tufts 

I press back into the stairs   

think    I am too young to know this   

to know that some knowing   

formed as a fossil      

can’t become unknown


Susan Kolodny's poems appear in New England Review, Beloit Poetry Journal, and in other jouirnals and several anthologies. She is the author of two collections, Preserve (Finishing Line Press, 2017) and After the Firestorm (Mayapple Press, 2011) as well as of the prose nonfiction book, The Captive Muse: On Creativity and Its Inhibition (PsychoSocial Press, 2000). A retired psychoanalyst and psychotherapist, she is on the faculty of the San Francisco Center for Psychoanalysis.  She lives and has been sheltering with her husband in Oakland, CA.

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