James Kelly Quigley

SEE SOMETHING SAY SOMETHING

When I was very young in New York it was May

all year, always the hour when jacaranda slaked

on pavement in the after-rain haze kicks up

around eddies of warm wind, when a yellow

swallowtail first ruptures its chrysalis to see

petals ultraviolet with new tetrachromatic eyes,

when the red aluminum of a Rhino bike

oxidizing after too many nights left in the drive

completes its transition to liberty green.

There was always a cat lounging in sun slits

stealing through old shutters onto brown shag,

the broken head of a plastic soldier lolling

in the bath, a wobbly katana extracted

from a dollar store Halloween costume

set by the pine-tarred Louisville Sluggers as if

just another means to an end. There were

dreamcatchers, star stickers, Super Soakers,

hardcovers, nail clippers, dehumidifiers,

thermometers, babysitters, other babysitters,

Nintendo 64 controllers, hand warmers, appetizers,

candlesnuffers, ringbearers, nebulizers.

But then there were officers, lawyers, stenographers,

polygraphers, restraining orders, social workers,

Manila folders, mood stabilizers, jewelers,

pawners, dealers, enablers, surrenders,

first-time offenders, disturbers of the peace.

 

I am still in New York, where one never forgets

one’s enemies. Where lightning never seems

to strike, though, of course, it does.

I am in New York and I want to tell someone

but everyone I know is also in New York.

I am in New York and New York is shrieking.

Please excuse the garlic salt under the fridge,

it’s for the mice. Ditto the peppermint fronds,

the peanut butter traps, the glue pads, the tufts

of steel wool stuffed in crevices between cabinets.

I am still young but not very young

and I am waiting for the SBS to slow down

so I can lean on a yellow pole and turn the page,

I am waiting for the analysts to solve the Todestrieb,

I am waiting for James Dolan to take his billions

and vanish in the Canaries. Remember when Melo

tweeted I didn’t ask for your glazed donut face ass

to root for me anyway at a fan? Remember when

those Occupiers locked themselves in CitiBank

in the East Village and the cops nightsticked

a woman and her blood on the blueish glass wall

and riot shields in the nonplussed daylight?

I can still see the cavalry’s horseshit lining 5th Ave,

the white reconstituted school busses filling up

with the poor, my brethren. 

 

New York never fails to let me down;

in this way it has never let me down.

Every now and then I hear him calling me

from across the street, whistling that way

with two fingers in his mouth, yelling our name

as he jogs up a nameless alley in Fordham,

rocking his cream Chucks and Carhartt,

needing a shave, long shank of a smile’s hook.

This is just a fantasy as the express F is a fantasy,

as rent controlled apartments are a fantasy,

as minimum wage is a fantasy,

as 9 to 5, as darkness and quiet and solitude,

as protect, as serve, as vigil, as recycle,

as no fumar, as see something say something,

yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, I know.

James Kelly Quigley’s poetry has received Pushcart Prize and Best New Poets nominations. Recent work has been published or is forthcoming in New York Quarterly, Sixth Finch, Harpur Palate, THE BOILER, Narrative, Nashville Review, SLICE, The American Journal of Poetry, THRUSH, and other places. He received both a BA and an MFA from New York University, where he taught undergraduate creative writing and was an editor of Washington Square Review. James was born and raised in New York, where he lives and works as a freelance writer.

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